Well i started liking girls in Kindergarden. I had a girlfriend in kindergarden :D She moved away the next year. 2nd-3rd grade i liked a girl named Jessie Ng. 4th-Half of 7th grade i liked a girl named Elisa Ngai. The other half of 7th -half of 8th, i fell in love with Diana Chen and from the half of 8th to graduation, Wendy Wong. Well it's past the first few months of high school. I was recently transferred to Algebra Hon. When i got on the bus, i met this girl named Iris. She was also in my Algebra Class. Walked her home and i fell in love :P. I also liked Judy. Start of the new semester. I then was transferred to regular Algebra. FML. I then started to like this girl. This girl could have been anyone i told you or it could be you.

Something Awkward happened to me. Jeanne Chen told me she liked me. This happened after i started liking someone new. I didn't have the same feeling towards her so i told her i liked someone else. After that conversation, She ignored me in school and blocked me on aim.

Things About me

Well i guess i need to describe myself. My favorite color is black and white. Favorite movie is Transformers. I just might be the most sensitive guy you know. I was once Emo but only cut myself 2 times. I cry 7 times a month. All the girls i like became my best friends and i only have 5 best friends. I like_____. If I trust you well enough i will tell you who that person. If i have told you i was lying or it's you. :P Been the outcast of my middle school and trying to bury the past in high school. Middle School was the worst 3 years of my life.
And Apperantly, my life sucks.

Leaving this world might not be such a bad thing.. Life, maybe, less stressful. I know alot of people who wishes to leave their life behind and start anew. My theory right now is that this generation is has the worst life possible. I do believe in god but why would he put us in awful lives to torture us?

My mind is filled with things.
Hurtful things....
Remembering the good days
Nap Time, Snacks, Recess.
The day also where pain and suffering never existed.
But I look deeper,
I'm scared I may find something I never wanted to see ever again.
Trying to organize my mind
Moving the bad memories away and leaving the good memories stay.
You could even say my head is functioning like a Computer right now.
Moving all the bad memories to the recycling bin or hiding it deep inside folders,
Leaving my worthwhile and good memories on my desktop or my wall paper :]

Sometimes I feel alone in this place,
Never to be happy where I am.
This..... This family of mines is the problem of it all.
My stress, hatred, and every other bad thing,
They caused it.
The Pain
The Suffering
The moments I felt that I needed to escape from my life.

My Friends...
The only thing keeping me on the ledge of leaving this place.
Without their help, i may even be gone for good.
Diana, William, Elisa, Jammy and everyone else always made me felt good about myself.
The feeling where your not alone,
but the feeling where you need to make a change.
Stand up for yourself
They are the reason Why.....

My Name is......

Anyways My name is Alan Shia. I was born in San Francisco, California on January 28,1995. I have a terrible life. I use to be a good little boy until the summer before middle school, I went to this summer school which was crazy to me. Star Learning Center. Everyday they give us a packet of HW and CW. When your done they would give you more. NON-STOP. I got so pissed, i stopped doing work.

Back and Alive

10/14/09

So I'm back and Alive!?!
How is that possible you may ask. My dad didn't go crazy about my C in Algebra Hon and Bio. I had a fake excuse. Its not that i enjoy lying, I just enjoy living more. Last time i got a D my dad tried to drag me out of the house but luckly i caught the wall's edge and grabbed on to it. :]